Welcome to Nine Months. I will be blogging here for
the next nine months about what it is like to be pregnant and take care of a young child!
I have one daughter who was born in January of 2002. Now I am expecting our
second (and final!) child the first week in December 2003.
Wednesday, April 30, 2003 The First Appointment and More (8 Weeks 1 Day)
I had my first appointment on Monday. The office that I go to is always busy. I had an appointment for 3:30 and they didn't see me until 4:30. Thank goodness that they didn't take my blood pressure because I am sure that it was soaring after that long wait. Of course the first visit isn't even with a doctor, it's the Physician's Assistant. She asks a few questions, does a brief exam and sends you on your way. I feel like this stuff is so fresh in my mind, since my daughter is only 15 months old, that I don't even need to go to the doctors! :) I feel like a pro at this!
I am having a difficult time keeping up with day to day life. The exhaustion of this pregnancy is killing me. I don't even feel like the same person anymore. I had a passion for photography that seemed to fizzle out with the plus sign on the pregnancy test stick. I have hardly picked up my camera. And when I do, the results are terrible. I just feel as though someone took over my body and I don't know who this person is.
I hate to sound so negative in all of these posts that I put here. But, this is just how I feel, right now. And that was my plan when I started this thing, to have a place to vent all of my feelings. A place to help me through the difficult and allow me to brag through the greatness. So, please bear with me. It will get happier around here, I just need some time for the second trimester to get here. :)
Thursday, April 24, 2003 7 AM Already? (7 Weeks 2 Days)
I love to sleep. Now more than ever. Despite having to get up three to four times to empty my bladder, I still enjoy sleep. I feel the best when I lay down in bed at night and pull the covers up and know that I have 8 or so hours of relaxation to look forward to. But, when 7 AM rolls around, I start to feel sad. I don't want to get up yet. It's not that I have to get up at that time. But, if I want to have breakfast, a little internet time and a shower before my little one gets up, then I must. I can't wait to get into the second trimester. I have a way to go yet. I remember that once the first trimester passed, I felt so good. And I really want to feel good and energetic right now. I guess I have about 7 more weeks of this to go...
Sunday, April 20, 2003 It's Starting... (6 Weeks 5 Days)
I knew that it was too good to be true. I had been feeling good up until a couple of days ago. We went to Canada this weekend to visit relatives and when they started cooking yesterday, the smell made me want to vomit. I had to go outside for some fresh air. I had some queasy moments this morning while making lunch. Before we got pregnant, I blocked all of these memories out of my mind so I would be brave enough to go through this again. Now that I have no choice but to face the truth of pregnancy, I just feel icky. There is nothing quite like feeling that your last meal is right there in your throat, ready to come out. Thank goodness that we are only having two children, because I don't want to go through this again. I remember saying that I didn't think I wanted to do this again with my first pregnancy! That's why I had to block it all out. Otherwise, my daughter would be an only child like me. And I didn't like being a lonely only. I know that one day I will look back at all of this and will know that it was all worth it. And that I would do it all again to have my precious child. When I look at my daughter and I know all that I went through to bring her to this world, I feel elated that I made it through it all and she is here now. That's what keeps me going!
Thursday, April 17, 2003 Here's Our Little Peanut (6 Weeks 2 Days)
I got a moment to scan the ultrasound picture from yesterday. The baby is still considered an embryo is extremely small. I labeled the picture so you can tell what is what. The little dot that you see next to where I typed "baby" is the baby and the big round circle is the yolk sac. The yolk sac is what feeds the baby until the placenta forms.
Wednesday, April 16, 2003 A Beating Heart! (6 Weeks 1 Day)
We had a little scare. I had some bleeding last night that alarmed me enough to call the doctor this morning. I had spotting early in my first pregnancy, so at first I thought nothing of it. But when I saw bright red blood, I got frightened. I was sent for an emergency ultrasound today and to our relief, we go to see the teeny, tiny little embryo growing in my tummy. We also got to see a beating heart! What a great feeling to see that heart and to know that everything is okay.
I've heard many women say that being pregnant was the best nine months of their lives. Unfortunately, I am not one of those women. I'm starting to have flashbacks to my first pregnancy and am remembering that I really wasn't a big fan of being pregnant. Sure, it's awesome when you start to feel the baby move, but that doesn't come for a while. I especially disliked the first 14 weeks of pregnancy. My energy is gone, I am limited on the things I can do. I feel like my body is no longer mine and it won't be again for several months! I don't mean to sound so negative about pregnancy, but if I could just decide to have a baby and get one instantly, I would surely go that route! I was going to mow the lawn today and my husband talked me out of it. He's afraid I might fall, or strain something. I know he is right, but I just miss my freedom right now. I know that this will pass and these feelings will soon turn more blissful. I just had to write about it here to help get it out of my system.
Monday, April 14, 2003 Where Has My Energy Gone? (5 Weeks 6 Days)
Lately, I haven't been able to get enough sleep. I forgot how early pregnancy zaps me of my energy. It scares me to think about having to get up in the middle of the night to feed a baby when I am feeling this tired. But this too shall pass. I'd rather feel tired than sick. I better not speak too soon because that is more than likely on the way. I remember during the first few weeks of my pregnancy with my daughter, I bragged about how good I felt. Then I hit somewhere around 6.5 weeks and I was ready to die. There is nothing quite like morning sickness. And morning sickness is a false description. It's more like all day sickness. Imagine getting off a really fast spinning ride and feeling extremely nauseous. Now picture feeling that way every second of the day for about 7 weeks or so. Nope, not fun! So I am just going to enjoy the way I feel, tired or not, because I know what could be up ahead for me.
This is my first post here! I am expecting my 2nd child sometime around December 9, 2003. I know that I cannot rely on due dates since my first baby came 2 1/2 weeks early! I am 5 weeks and 2 days along. So, I am still very early into this pregnancy. We just broke the news to our family this past Sunday. They didn't seem as surprised as they were when we announced our first pregnancy. I guess they kind of figured we would be telling them sooner or later, since they knew that we always wanted two children! We were actually quite surprised by how quickly we conceived since it took a year to get pregnant with our first. This time it happened with our first try! Our first baby is a girl and she is 14 months old. Our children will be 22 months apart in age. I always wanted my children to be close in age.
Nobody knows about this blogger yet. We haven't told any of our friends yet, so I will be selective on where I post the link to this site until the news is officially out!